heavenly (:

food for thought

2011-04-03T21:00:00.004+08:00

2006-06-04T17:53:00.000+08:00

To采导：懂啥！这叫成熟！哈哈哈~ Anyway, enjoy ur time staying at home! All the best~ *Muackz~

2006-06-04T09:49:00.000+08:00

haa..I wonder if any of us still pops by our little heaven? Its been half a year since fang fang made a last entry here! haa..everybody is busy =) yepz...
Anyway, i am going back to Taiwan next Sunday...if u guyz need anything ( like the sumthn-look alike cotton candy =p), juz tell me k! haa, ill be more than happy to buy them for u guyz =) n i will be back most prob in early August..
oh yeah, juz to let my juniors noe...I LUV THIS YEAR'S HUANG CHENG! i think u guyz are fantastic n i enjoyed the performance immensely =) Enjoy ur june holiday..but rem to work hard too!! All the best for 2nd block test wahahaa.....
to fang fang:'我的媽呀', 你的年齡應該早就是五開頭的吧? 呵呵沒關係, 你有我陪...雖然我不是那麼心甘情願啦..><
to zhao yin n jessie: best wishes to u guyz =) 不管你們去哪裡, 別忘了帶著我的祝福喔!

tsai~

2005-11-05T21:01:00.000+08:00

Darren的话真是振奋人心。。完了完了我又被模了。（以上的话有谁不明白单独来找我。）

不管怎么说，不情愿也好不舍得也罢，J1的一年就这么混混的马上就要过去了。。不少辛酸，不少感动，一转眼也就这么还没准备好地成为了照片上泛黄的回忆，定定地凝在在那里让我们祭奠。。我们特殊的2005，特殊的J1。

释然吧，你们的好，我的释然 :)

终于又是看雪的季节，终于又是一年岁末将至，打理行装的时刻。。明年新演员试镜的时候，明年天堂大门再次敞开的时候，呵，你们再次看到的我将不再会是1字开头的年龄，和你们一样了。

释然吧，你们的好，我的释然。。。。。。

Waaah!

2005-11-05T01:18:00.000+08:00

WAAAH!!!!!!!! How come the blog is so dead! Now that promos is over for J1s, lets blooog!!!

Well, so many things have happened since before blocks. Too many events have past by. We have aged more than 6 months. I am missing those days again. The pai2 xi4, the chuan1 pei4 pi2 pa2 gao1, B101, amphi, VT....

Well, I am glad to see that everybody is doing fine. From what I know and see, NingFei is now the section-leader of xuan2 yue4 in chinese orchestra, Shiyan is coping well with chinese orc and is able to read 2 S-papers next yr, David is still as cool and good in music and dance, FangFang is still as trendy in her casual wear, WeiZheng is able to reap the benefits of his size now that he is in rugby, ChengYing is doing fine in MAD and from what I see is happy with Pey Yann, YunLing is able to put everything behind her and will now says 'hi' to NingFei, and me, I am happy that I can read Physics and Maths S Papers next year and I am still as adventurous as ever.

=)

The 3 scripts for next year's huangcheng has been chosen already. If I can't become daoyan, I am more than happy to be in daoju! I have fun friends there!

Time really flies! Really too much things have happened.

To the ZhaoYing, TsaiHsiu, Jessie: JIAYOU!!! We hope you can do TianTang proud in ALevels!!!

I hope we can all get back together one day and do the performance again. We'll be our own audience. Maybe, our tears can replace the applause and cheers at the end of it.

Yi4 Bu4 Tian1 Tang2, thank you for everything!

hihi~haha

2005-05-14T11:05:00.000+08:00

my god...havent been blogging for a VERY LONG time huh... so much to read suddenly..cant be bothered (; dunno why i cant stand reading huge chunks of text now...

anyway, yesterday was BODY LANGUAGE~~ haha on tues me and my first 3 mths friends were caught watching their rehearsal ONLY AFTER WE WATCHED THE WHOLE THING...haha how stupid! david and cy were guest-starring wad...so i support lorz (my god fang2 was giggling like mad when david exposed his whole torso... how come ur shirt so loose! think ur rapper image backfire already lar...) anyway. i pulled along some nj and rj crashers to watch lorz...thank me (:

oh ya.. i got the photos already... im the 2nd biggest spender (With a grand total of $43.60, just a few bucks behind xinyu (: ) joon kiat (photog head) was nearly hugging and kissing me la... hahaz~ then i left the photos in one of my drawers! haha omg... realised that nearly everyone had contorted faces...hmm thats quite interesting... im eagerly awaiting the release of LIMITED EDITION HUANGCHENG DVD WITH EXTRA FEATURES.. haha

then hor, for the chung cheng drama nite rite, the sm (whos the sister of a chin soc senior) saw us leaving during the interval lar! then she was quite sad, and said the last 2 were better...honestly i felt disillusioned after watching 暖毛毛...haha~

anyway, ph, wah lao eh, i was scratching my head when nf suddenly sent me a message "eh we meet at ps at 12 eat lunch together." only realised just now when i called nf that u were going to buy present la... how come nv tell me! i thought nf send the msg to wrong person lorz... and then nv help me sign up for the cip thingy... so 欠扁 hahaz... you should be grateful im so free today, i would have cooped myself at home and mug ：p

wait wait..one last thing~ EVERYONE GO FOR INSPIRATIONS V horz... so far those can go include sy, nf, cy(wow!), myself. call e others to go lehz, esp th, who claims she wants to mug at home!!!

gtg liao...MAKAN AT PS!!!

shout outs part 2

2005-05-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

Yun Ling ( Terrorist B) : hey hey hey. yun ling, really had a fun time singing shui jing whole day long with u, esp at the VT there.hahaha.everybody sianz liao we still singing there, its real FUN!!!:) i enjoyed my time crapping with u a lot, its like, i always will niao somebody in tian tang( u shld noe who) then u will laugh like mad! haha, i like ppl who appreciate my jokes ;) and oh yar, thx for all the advices u gave me on how to woo a gal, hahaha! i shall not comment on ur relationship with someone cos i noe it makes u mad :p but oh well, i noe u do concern for all the ppl in tian tang, and i mean ALL, its just that some u showed concern in a discreet manner ;) and by the way, u r a damn pro actress, I very stressed when u ru xi, lol. all the best! in everything :P
Famous quote from YL: ah de de de de de ...........

Fang2 (mother) : hi mum! heard abt u recently being quite sad:( oh well, cheer up, u haf us!:) wad can i say, i mean, u really do take care of me, like a mum.i can rmb a lot of things u done for me lor, including the ear plugs u gave me during VT to prevent somebody's roaring snores;)and yes, heard a lot abt ur precious love exp u had in ha er bin, and ur super advices too!hahaha.even though we niao u sometimes har, we dun mean it at all lar, we all still love u lots! and thx a lot for ur bdae gift har, REALLY special!:p all the best in NJ and must come see us often ok? ( heard from SY that u found another cute guy in ur class, haha.tsktsktsk buaya gal.lol)
Famous quote from Fang2: when i was in ha er bin last time har.....

the guys in tian tang right?hahaha.wait wait wait. gd things come in 3 parts, like matrix and LOTR trilogy, the best is yet to come;)

2005-05-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

I only went out for a short while, got home and slept. The following day my dad told me a 7 yr old korean boy had drowned in the swimming pool when i was out last night. None of the residents knew CPR while they waited for the ambulance. He died when it arrived. Someone told me it was heaven's will, cos the boy went to swim juz as i left the hse, i dunno...

Some People believe that fate dominates a person's entire life, and that all events are inevitable. Others feel that we are free to make choices in life and that fate has absolutely no role in our lives. People frequently do not realize the significance of their own action when they are in the process of doing that action. It is only at a later time that they realize how important that particular action was to their lives, or those of others. Fate as defined in Dictionary is "That which inevitably happens as though determined by force”. Everyone has a predetermined fate or destiny that will happen. You do not decide your future but it is already decided for you and you just have to deal with it because you have no control over what is going to happen. Everyone was born to do a certain job and what we will do in life is already predetermined. In every million there will be an astronomer, a mathematician... does it mean tt there is no point in trying to better yourself because you were destined to be something and no matter what you do you can’t escape your fate?

Fate. Even the word alone is intimidating. I believe I can safely say that everyone at one point in their lives have wondered about fate. "ming4 yun4" is something that I have never thought of before, though it is something that I believe in with all my heart. I believe that each person has a fate in store for them. Are human lives just a predetermined course of events? The thought of something predetermined for our lives is a frightening one. God knows the ending of our lives. He knows what is in store for us. Does this mean that we have no choice or say in what happens in our lives?

"It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves." A quote from William Shakespeare in Julius Caesar

shout outs

2005-04-27T19:40:00.000+08:00

alright! this is for everyone in tian tang!!!!( not in any order)

TH(Mother of TIAN TANG): hey act cute beauty( u called that urself) hahaha!wad can i say. i rmb the 1st day when i was at the LEP rm u told me u r taiwanese also, i felt close to u liao. :) yes, even though i kept on niaoing u, but oh well, if i dun care abt u, would i even bother to niao u right?;) but its all joking lar.haha.u really looked like my mum.hahaha, not fang2.lol..yes, i noe u haf a steady love life liao, so no need to say anything abt it.hahaha.anw, u really rocked as a senior and a fren! always feel relieved when toking to u:) anw, do take care of ur health yea?u look very weak and sick in sch.hahaha.we r the rockiest taiwanese in SG!!!
famous quote from TH: How I noe??? we3 geng1 ni3 you3 chou2 ah1?

ZY( Father of TIAN TANG)aka huang di: hey eunuch!hahaha. u noe wad, during the 3 mth time, i really enjoyed with u ard lar. its like, u will nv scold lor, u just say keep on saying its up to u to decide.hahaha.somemore u always haf those funny jokes and things to tell us abt, i always anticipate when u started toking lor!i luv ur shen2 deng1 joke!!!haha. TH and jessie always say u r the typical guy nowadays, dunno how to be romantic one.haha.then u very horny.lol.but oh well, wads wrong for a grown up guy like u?haha.yes, ur love life is steady too, so shldnt comment abt it, but shld say u r very gd at jioing gals.hahaha.*respect*
famous quote from huang di: jio gal must try 3 times, if not the gal will think u cant perservere....

Jessie(Big Sis of TIAN TANG): JESSSSSS. after huang cheng, i haf been very close to u i realised. u haf always been there to console me and advice me!!!really appreaciate a lot. not that others didnt, but u haf done more than them. much more.even on that day when i confessed, u r the only one smsing with me almost throughout the day and listen to me whine.haha. and when i am at my lowest, u even treated me to drinks. that is really really really super sweet and nice.:):):) then on my bdae har, its like i didnt really expect anyone to rmb it or wad lar, or mb rmb then nv give any present.but after assembly, u came straight to me and wished me happy bdae then gave me the coolest present on earth!!!so damn touched and happy!!!:D:D:D even my frens say ur present super cool, must haf cost a lot (money and effort), but oh well, i noe where u got it from liao.hahaha!!! sweet! i realised that now har, whenever i haf prob har, i will tell u first lor.haha.and its so fun seeing u trying avoid someone.hahaha.as for ur love life.hmmm.i noe ur secret!!! and i am the only one other than urself who noes it.hahaha.so honoured. E _ _ _ N. ;) u rocked big time!!! so glad and relieved to see u every day in sch.hahaha.stay happy always yea? enjoy ur temporary single period!lol.
famous quote from Jess: Oh Well.....

p.s. to anyone who still think jessie is very mean, SHE IS NOT!!!cos ZY and TH very nice, so she has to be the one to be fierce if not we will go out of hand!!!so yar, jessie's the best!:)

Cheng Yin (Wife): well, wad can i say? is this fate?haha. after huang cheng, we r still in the same cca!coolios!i rmb first time when i was at the actor training class, i only toked to u, dunno y.then after that, even during pai xi all those, when i not close to any other ppl yet, i only tok to u too. and i rmb u r the ultimate expert at jioing gals too har.hahaha.u said u can go write a bk on how to jio gals liao, even though u r a gal urself.hahaha. but u r so pro, always giving me advice, even though i didnt dare to try it out until recently (which failed terribly).but oh well, really a big thx and great hug for being there to advice me and console me and so on! must say u dance really well too, when i saw u dance at the first few sessions of MAD, u really can twist ur body well.;) so happy to catch up with u that day at central plaza and we like got so much to things to tok abt lar!hahaha. i rmb we met each other and started chatting in the middle of central plaza,hahaha. i am sure we will be best working partners in MAD!!!since we noe each other so well liao.
famous quote from CY: David, dun be like a gal so puo puo ma ma lar, just go for it and u can do it.

the rest har, i will blog as soon as possible, sry, got bio test tmr,hehehe. all the best to me!!!

Sentimental

2005-04-25T22:59:00.000+08:00

Listening to Forbidden Love now. Never fail to make me emotional. I really wonder what love is. Love. If there was no love on earth, would the feeling be the same as wad the misery love will sometimes give us? I really wonder. Wonder how love complements life in reality. Why must it be painful at times?

Shadnt go into details on the outings. Before I move on to more emotional parts, must really thank TianTang for the support given to me. I am very glad that I can get into chinese society exco. Will do my best as activities IC.

NingFei: (Please read this slowly, do not rush through) From the bottom of my heart, I thank you! All the joy and sorrows we shared these few months definitely cannot be expressed here. You are a true friend who never fails to be sensitive to all our feelings. Whenever I feel sad and remain quiet, you never fail to show concern towards me. Am really touched that u care abt my feelings and my situation with her. Really miss those overnight stays in chinese high, where we climbed up the clock tower and slept at the terraces gazing at the night sky. Typing this, I am on the verge of both crying and smiling. Memories. Haiz... how we always go out together. I love music, and I must make you promise to finish teaching me how to play forbidden love. Can imagine myself sitting in front of the grand piano next time when I get old, playing forbidden love, thinking of you, thinking of huangcheng days, thinking of her, and thinking of our old days together. How I wish we could travel through time. Time is what makes life meaningful. It brings joy, it brings tears. It brings people together, it separates them. A world without time will just be like a world without love. You would not appreciate what you have. But then again, moving along with time and leaving behind those happy moments as memories is exactly what creates sadness just like what this post is showing. Promise me you will get over her soon. Tell yourself its only an infatuation. Love cannot be forced. There is no point in waiting anymore. Even if you two get together, trust me, based on the situation now, it would not be a happy ending. 忠言逆耳 (noble advices always sound bad), hope u understand my meaning. You are a great guy with great qualities. I am very sure you will have no problem finding a girl who likes u as well. And I really hope u can get your piano diploma soon. And, the greatest present you can give me is a song sung by yourself. Though you din get into CS exco, must remember to go for chouwei and bianshen. I really hope we can re-live the huangcheng dream again together. (really want to tear by now, but family members around, so holding the tears back)

Shiyan:
David:
Weizheng:

(too tired now. continue next time.)

2005-04-25T20:25:00.000+08:00

Yo~to my tian tang deariez!
haa~...xing yu...ni niao wo dao hen shuang rite!? go my blog...n i shall revenge! wahahaha...
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/whitecaffine
Everybody take good care kz!
congrats to Pei Han as well!! Jia you!!! do ur best~~it'll be more rewarding than u imagine =)

reflections

2005-04-24T21:29:00.000+08:00

lets start from thurs. on thurs, we r supposed to be on the outing for my bdae. haiz... stupid tsai hsiu and zhao yin, cannot make it, so haf to switch it to friday then, but ph, nf and sy bought me present liao, guitar polish!:)))my guitar will shine man!!
on friday, haiz....cheng yin cant make it, she can only make it on thurs, haiz...feel so bad to neglect her again even though sometime is she really dun wanna join, but this time she wanna join lor, srrryyyy, cheng yin, blame TH and ZY.hehe. but anw, friday was extremely long to me lar.hahaha.been expecting to see tian tang ppl since assembly.even during the maths trail, my team was measuring while i stoning and thinking of u guys;) (mushy) somemore aftn got chem mock spa lar, wah lau.wrong timing man, can concentrate.haha. cant balance equation, in the end got my calculations all wrong, but its mock only, so phew.....but i am so glad when its over:DDD then after that i met up with pei han and fang2 at amphi there. then come stumbling the wei zheng,haha! then we went to meet up with TH, ZY and SY and off we go to orchard. we r hoping we can get to that buffet restaurant recommended by TH which sounded really nice with jap cuisine and dim sum, but oh well, its dao3 bi4 as said by SY. then PH started saying WZ must haf come here b4.hahaha. then after that we went to TAKA, but the dim sum buffet also dao3 bi4 there, hahaha, u noe whos been there har.lol.yeah, in the end we went to seoul garden. yeah, tian tang ppl treating me, feeling so gd.hehehe.u can simply see zhao yin's side's plate and ours lar, its like heaven and hell. his cooking plate har, the meat all placed nicely but ours har, one here one there, some stucked, thx to wei zheng.hahaha. but oh well, really glad that TH and ZY rmbed to buy a cake for me.and the cake tasted really well!!! feel so glad and touched to be in the tian tang family while they r feeding me the cake one by one:):):) (ZY added chilli sauce on his portion of cake to feed me, heng arh, no diarrhoea, haha) but too bad, ZY, TH and Fang2 had to leave early, so left me, WZ SY and PH. PH and WZ started feasting again while me and SY toked abt relationship and stuff, yes i noe, againnn..haha.then we dun wanna play zhong ji mi ma becos 1stly, me and SY cant take it anymore, 2ndly, playing will just be cooking more meat for WZ and feeding him.hahahaha.thx TH and ZY for the choc and the love luck it has.hahaha.after that we went to watch movie lor, infection, throughout the show, i had my hand in front of me, watching the the show through gaps btw my fingers.hahaha.at the end of movie, i had only one concept in my mind: the apple is green, and so is my blood.lol.and btw, b4 the movie right, we had some waiting time, then we toked abt our sad love again, hahaha, a, wz must haf felt out of place, go get ur love, wz.:D then we toked abt if time can go back, wad will we do. SY want to wait until he is old, then time travel back to J1 1st 3 mth with us again.so touching! then ph wanted to go back to when he is still a baby, playing ard whole day, not worrying abt anything.not bad an idea! i?hmmi not very sure also, haiz. i think i will just go back to the time when glori and me were still very close and mb confessed early at that time, mb she will accept? i dunno.i really dunno.....haiz... so sad jessie couldnt come.:(((((((if she is there will be more fun man!;) nvm, shall ask her some other day to let her enjoy the atmosphere:):)same goes for cheng yin too!

on sat, went for election.hahaha.oooooops, sry ning fei, forgot i was supposed to second u.hahaha.anw, when me and TH seconds wei zheng, a lot of ppl start telling me i look exactly like TH.hmm, she got so gd looking like me meh?hmmm.but TH, dun get too happy just becos ppl say u look like me har, u haf to be humble.yes.hahaha.but i went back and compared u and my mum's pic, u 2 really looked alike, esp when my mum is young, and the thing is, i looked a lot like my mum.;)anw, congrats to pei han for getting in, must organise fun activites for us ok? organise camp or stuff, will be damn fun. also congrats to guang feng my classmate who can make it so far to vice-pres when he is only a 2nd intake, hmmmm must be due to my gd speech made for him lar, haiz..cant help it, i am just this gd.*wink*hahaha, its so funny lar when i asking TH abt the dinner:
me: TH, u noe abt the dinner later right?
TH: ohh, i cannot go leh, got zhi wei dinner.
me:huh??? i was going to ask abt the zhi wei dinner wad. wad u toking abt?
TH: ohhh, i tot u toking abt later u all going out for dinner then asking me
me:hahahaha, y would i ask u har? tsk tsk tsk
TH: fine lor wadeva.

hahaha, its so funny har, but oh well, we didnt really had some dinner outing lar TH, in fact, we rushed our dinner at BK.and i tell u wad, the chung cheng performance sux totally lar. now i noe how well we acted.;) SY, me and WZ left at interval, then i went home after that.haha.heard WZ split his pants while getting onto the car that day.hahahaha.thats so funny even though its expected.oops.but i really must say i enjoed these 2 days with tian tang ppl lar, feel like back to the old days when we r together, haiz... but i noe now its all diff liao, diff sch, cant spend so much time together liao, time really flies and changes ppl yar?haiz.its really true to say ppl only start treasuring things when they lost it, i rmb i dun really like mixing ard with u guys at start of huang cheng, but now, how desperate i am to want to mix with u all man.haiz....

tiantang

2005-04-24T02:47:00.000+08:00

heyhey everyone, i'm in sa water polo! hehe, so glad i got into the team, but trainings's rather tough, 4 times a week! the first training i had(elections day for cls 23/4) was quite slack though, 40 laps of freestyle...then got a bit of sunburn, but i like the tan colour of my skin now, hehe :)

hmmm... back to 22 april, we met at the bus stop opp coro, (aft peihan, david, wz n fang had a kaisheng session in hc), then fang made a big fuss abt my hair, oso telling me abt her life at nj, n of course another cute guy in her class, haiz... jian4 yi1 ge4 ai4 yi1 ge4, but can't really blame her, 19yr old le, hehe. then we left for seoul garden aft zhaoyin n tsaihsiu came. actually we din have seoul garden in mind intially, but since the other buffets had already dao3 bi4 cos wz din tell us he had secretly visited all of them, so sg was the only buffet we cld think of. (cos acc to ph: it had many branches in s'pore n wz cldn't possibly visit them all in one shot)

nothing really happened at seoul garden, i mean we're already used to wz's gluttony, hehe. (the entire day juz keep on nioa-ing wz) a few other jcs (rj, vj, ac n cj) were there as well, then david started comparing rj wif hc girls, also adding tt scgs girls are the qio-est (wonder wad sch glory is in...) ard tt time there was a rugby match, sa vs hc in sa, my bro playing, too bad can't support him. anw zhaoyin, tsaihsiu n fang had to leave early, so the 4 of us remained behind as wz n ph continued to feast, while discussing abt our problems, mainly concerning relationships... haiz.

the 4 sad men(us) were on our way to ciney when we met tsaihsiu, shopping! aiyo, how can she lie to us abt gg home to rest, hurt our feelings :( though it's not really very fun to haf her ard, jkjk! n then there were 5... but became 4 again aft tsaihsiu went home upon arriving at ciney, or did she? eventually we went to lido cos the movies at ciney were too late. the scene along ord rd muz haf been v funny: 4 grown up guys walking side by side, singing chi love songs... haha! it was even funnier when we had to use 'oya peiya som' to decide which movie to watch! more than a decade of education n this is the level of intellectual we possess... jkjk! made an extremely important phone call tt nite... very nervous, yet excited, erm wad am i saying :)

infectious is seriously the worst movie i've ever seen, how can they actually screen this kind of movie in s'pore! only lower our IQ, haiyo, could haf put the $8.50 to better use. think i shldn't say more abt its plot.

23 april, hmmm... had polo training, n the coach was very(x10) fierce! keep on shouting like a loud speaker even if u're juz infront of him. n tt foul mouth of his, keep using vulgarities like a machine gun, every sentence will contain a diff body part in diff dialect. i REALLY detest ppl who use vulgarities, those words juz spoils their image, n listening is very ci4 er3. i think very lowly of them cos i feel they cannot find a substitute vocabulary to express their emotions... arrrhhh! shldn't kill my brain cells becos of these ppl.

went home to slp, got aches all over, thinking abt the outcome of the elections happening in lt1... woke up ard 5, aches seem to haf gotten worse, plus the burning sensation on my face, but the excitement to meet tiantang overwhelms my other senses... (izzit too kua1 zhang1?) congrats to cherylene who is officailly taking over soonkiat( my guess exactly) n the 2nd intaker guy, (paiseh, 4got the name) he muz haf been very talanted to be chosen as vice president. n hurray to ph for becoming part of the committee! u're the man! for those who din get their desired posts... no point feeling sad over it, there are so many other things to feel happy abt, ur very existence, frens, family, tv, food, bed... opps, off topic le. u never know if it's a blessing in disguise, n anw there r only these no. of posts to be filled n so many ppl. moreover the committee muz be a grp of very capable ppl who will bring cls to achieve greater things, since they haf been chosen by the seniors.

chungcheng performance wasn't very nice, infact we fell aslp while watching it, hehe. the night came to an end faster than i tot n my dad came, dropping wz n fang on the way home, while ph n nf went home together. n wz's trousers tore when he trying to get onto the car, i heard it, so he had to come my hse to change into another pants he brought (think he knew it wld happen, or maybe it happens all the time, hahaha!)

to the tian tang guys, (except wz who is free frm all the relationship problems) we can sympathise wif one another cos we're almost like gg thru the same thing. tt's a consolation.

nf: i guess u haf the most diff prob among the 4 of us. it's not ur fault tt she doesn't accept u, cannot means cannot, dun like means dun like...these kind of things, really depends on both parties. never think tt u haf done sth wrong tt she doesn't accept u, cos we all think u haf very very good qualities, zhen de. the prob now lies tt u can't get her out of ur mind despite the fact tt she has already made it clear. however this can't be helped, ur brain can't choose wad u want or dun want to 4get. sorry, but we really can't help u very much this time cos the outcome is up to u, n her, my only piece of advice is tt only time will heal ur suffering... sorry bro, can't offer much help like u always had for me, but if i can, u can guarantee to haf my unreserved support.

ph: how can we 4get the times when we spent our very first stayovers on the terrace, how we tokked abt our crushes, how happy and innocent we sound then, but it seems so far awy now...how so many things haf changed right b4 our eyes. we can all see tt she means the world to u, though we're not sure if she feels the same way. ur perseverance n commitment to the person u love have inspired n touched our hearts. for now, not much can be said cos we're still waiting for the reply. however we think u r very brave to say u're willing to forget n start everthing afresh if it turns out to be negative. cos we know we definetly wun haf tt courage to forget everything. like wad u said, it just saddens the heart to be thinking of her everyday in sch if u already know there's no outcome. 4 ur extraordinary courage, we salute u.

david: ur heart muz haf sank when she told u tt she already has a bf. when she kept on apologising saying she had given u the wrong impression, i noe u juz felt like running awy to cry. u told her tt u're ok, but deep down u juz want to shout, wished tt the floor wld open a big hole so u cld hide inside. we're juz glad tt u're taking so positively now, cos u haven't given up hope all this while. u will definitely haf a lot of chances since yall see each other everyday, plus the upcoming church camp will surely bond yall closer together.

me: erm, quite funny tokking to myself. haiz... u noe wad, u're brain functions normally until u're inside her 10m radius zone. ur normally talkative self goes dumb just by the sight of her. WHY??! the worse thing is tt u dunno if she feels the same way u feel abt her. i think to find out, u first haf to overcome tt speaking barrier. ask her out more, tok more, but u lack confidence. u say u will wait till her tests r over, but r they just excuses? piece of advise, just be yourself in her presense, it's like u dun haf the problem of speechlessness of lacking eye contact when u're wif anyone else.

it's funny. i used to mock at my frens in sec sch for feeling so depressed over a girl, how what a waste of time it was. but now i know...

2005-04-06T17:38:00.000+08:00

hey...if u look at the yahoo groups carefully now, u will see that i have just uploaded a pix of all the 演员s+jessie online...i wonder why we dont have a 全家福 one..except the 遗照 (btw that was lame...) perhaps i did not snap it down, so on xhc, shall we have a cheerful 全家福? (: everyone pls bring ur cameras horz... anyway i still owe the following people postcards: ningfei, yunling, chengying. ARGH!!! cannot procrastinate! must write my 肺腑之言 to them by xhc! seriously, what do u think of the bonding post-hc... surely the most hardcore pairs must be of ningfei+darren, ningfei+sheeyan, sheeyan+fang2 and darren+david (actually together one)... but how about the rest? esp. yunling and chengying, i hardly get to see them (let alone talk) nowadays...perhaps they have their own circles...hope we can get the feeling back come xhc.. with all the outings we had (surely we were more united than 还有味 and as good as 大拇指 right?) ha...talking about outings...we even got other people to tag along with us (e.g. vaneh)~just goes to show our spirit. hope you'll like the gelato (the time where i treated you to hao lian my o's results..ha!) i noes its a bit too sweet lah..

to quote ningfei (rather, 恐A)：你们还会记得我吗？

hey guys

2005-04-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

hello ppl! my bday is just ard the corner. 18 of april! *beams* i may organise a bbq or maybe not, if yes i will inform u guys lar, and it will most likely be on sunday, 17th of april. so try to make that day free yar? and u guys noe wad to do right???hahahahaha.by the way, all go for chung cheng play leh, then more fun...today nf toked abt wondering whether the bond between me, him, sy and ph will last even till NS or not...haiz.....lets make an effort to keep it forever yar???

peace out.

-dave

p.s. after XHC this sat, lets haf a tian tang outing want????

2005-04-04T00:24:00.000+08:00

hey...xiao hc meeting was totally, like, didnt happen la!!! i mean, we only sat down and discussed for 5 mins before the capteh deathmatch (tiantang vs haiyouwei) started... somemore we could have everyone discussing....hahaz...
had to go for class outing la...so didnt go for dinner and davids house... i should have gone lar..then i can free-load him like crazy...serves him right for treating me like his "maria"...everytime ask me do this and do that...even joining yahoo groups also want me to help him login... what the...
as for xiao hc right, i think tiantang is the least enthusiastic amongst all the 3 ju's la...the others had already rehearsed even before meeting ended, then only left us still doing nothing....
btw, will be in charge of editing the lyrics, will pass these to all of u guys soon (hopefully)... must find a day to rehearse and sing together lar~~~how about wednesday? and for jessie, bucktoothed girl and huangdi, what will u people be doing? sing with us leh.......dont just zuo shi bu li...
"THREE NIGHTS IN VT..."

天堂

2005-04-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

shiyan's post 让我感触良深。

opps

2005-04-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

aiyo! sorry ah, posted so many times oso dunno. paiseh! -_-"

david's hse

2005-04-03T17:52:00.000+08:00

hihi, shi yan here, 1st time posting, so exciting! (previous 1 not counted) haha!
erm...well, last sat meeting for xiao hc was kinda useless cos we din do anything productive. but at least we (nf, ph n me) went to david's hse, n it was super fun! n thx to nf, i noe how to play cannon in D liao. ( played till 2 plus in the morning, hehe)

then david showed me this jap animae in his com, wahh, v nice, can't believe jap cartoon can be so exciting, n touching as well, sob sob. oh ya, then he gave me 2 korean vcds to watch, namely a moment to rmb n classic. ph told me to watch alone if i dun want ppl to c me crying, wonder how true is dat...
so after one v fun filled dae, nf, ph n i bid farewell to david n went home, at 12! so it wasn't suprising dat we headed back up to his hse again cos there were no more bus services, hehe. david was kind enuf to let us stay over at his hse, (partly cos his parents r overseas) thou we had to squeeze on the floor while he took the entire bed! we oso watched polar express (hehe, me fell asleep halfway...) n ate like pigs: after dinner at beauty world, david served us 2 packets of ruffles, maggi mee, fish porridge, seafood soup...

well, at least that saturday wasn't wasted, got to c ppl in hc u, (david looks more mature now, haha) fang in nj u, n myself in the nicest u, sa! (blue n white combination is the best) :) anw nf's trousers tore while he was playing cahpteh, haiz, no skill... more importantly, i gtg wif mel 4 lunch b4 gg to xiao hc! hehe, not used to seeing her in hc u, rg nicer. well, the food at amoy wasn't v nice, was forcing myself to finish dat beef noodle, cos the other more well known food stalls had v long queues. i tried the carrot cake, tasted q good, so bought 6 more for tian tang which was quickly eaten up by the guys. (me eating 2 out of 6, hehe) was q nervous during dat outing, think some things i said were q wu liao, haiz...still lack facial communication, feel more comfortable thru sms or msn. think wad i need is time... anw spend q some time trying to make my hair neater, like combing n putting gel in the morning, then fang tells me it's horrendous! think i shld juz stick to the old messy turf of hair/bush instead.

i'll juz like to say dat i enjoy every moment i spend wif tian tang. (esp nf, ph, david n fang) even if we only meet up once a wk, i'm truly grateful le. well, i believe dat it's not the amt of time u spend wif the ppl u like, juz seeing them makes u happy.

zhen de, zha de, yan de, hong de, ao de, dun de...

mandalai

2005-04-03T17:07:00.000+08:00

boo hoo

Don't get CHEATED!!

2005-04-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl!!
Remember the 'sanitary mash mellows' and 'condom chocolates' i gave to u ppl during huang cheng?? I saw ppl selling it at Taka! BUT......its 4 times the price i bought in taiwan......juz to tell u guys~yep~不要上當!太貴了啦!! hahahaha~ BTw, they sell lots of other cute candies and cookies too....*beamz*~

Anyway, good luck for the performance my dear yan yuans! haaha, im looking forward to it! =) Jia you ppl! J2s, mug hard~ =p 20 MORE WEEKS TO PRELIMS~ lol!!!! * my teachers nag until i xiao!*

~miss u all~

2005-03-31T22:21:00.000+08:00

heyhey pple, i hope you guys actually check this or your email. :P anyway... got a couple of things to tell yall. even now that huangcheng is over

1) please please do come for xiao huang cheng.. its actually sorta compulsory.. esp for shiyan and fang2 cos its like, if yall dont come then whats the point?! we get to see the rest in sch anytime laa.... haha but yall are so faar away ): so come k? and the hc pple, no reason not to come! i mean you all rarely get to see each other in sch.. and you only see fang2 and shiyan once in a blue moon! so do come k. its probably 4pm @ lt 3 on 9th april. please tell me if u cannot make it by this saturday. thankew. although i expect everyone to be there laa :P

2) for the hc pple, there is a -compulsory- jian3 tao3 on 5th april (tuesday) 5.30.. it shd be at the lep room... (: if there's any changes i'll tell u. its a jian tao for our performance.. so get ready anything u want to say. even if its not abt perf, u might want to bring it up for the good of next year's huangcheng...

3) as for pple thinking of joining huangcheng next year, do consider running for zhiwei (ie the exco) k. we really need pple like yall (: and pls dont think its an entirely j2 performance. it wasn't confirmed before so i dunno who heard the news la. it was an option only. and now with the first intake only being cancelled in 2008, it may be a less possible option now. so if you want to stay in huangcheng next year, do think of joining zhiwei, bianshen tuan or even xingzheng k..? although zhiwei and bianshen needs yall more right now.. (: forms will be given out during xhc so yall still have a week plus plus to think about it. please do consider it. zwxh and huangcheng are great to be in (: opt i and iii are recommended.

4) haha. some xuan-chuaning. :P there's 3 shows by other orgs coming up! let me list them down la. maybe yall can decide on one to go for and then we can all go as a tiantang outing? *beams*

i. between the devil and the deep blue sea: its a puppetry show by the ten finger players. 6-16 apr at 8pm or 9, 10, 16, 17 apr @ 3pm @ the arts house. tix are $8 (:

ii. nus chi soc perf: 2 or 3 apr @ dbs arts centre. there's all sorts of performances other than drama la... its 10 bucks per person. this one yall have to tell me quickly cos its this sat/sun

iii. chungcheng high cs perf: a bit like huangcheng with 4 shows. 23rd apr @ nafa. 4pm or 7.30 pm. tix are going @ $10 or $12.

hm as i mentioned earlier, i and iii are recommended by the teachers.. its also really good for pple considering to stay in huangcheng to go and watch more shows and see their acting, their set, clothes and makeup and their show effects (lx and sound). it will be an experience for you all la. to be in drama, exp really counts and helps a lot (: so must go see all these perfs. furthermore can go for dinner/lunch first and then go for the show mah... tiantang outing. so if you all want to go as a group, someone pls collate and tell me the exact no. if you all are going not as a group, meaning like outside friends or only two or three of yall are going, please tell me too! sms me which show and stuff yall want k. (: - haha so thats my bit for "organising" an outing. so dont say i never organise ah. haha ^-^

2005-03-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

OOPS is right... haha no wonder all your voices all liddat la... tsk. never take care properly.. :P haha anyway, blocks were over ages ago for me. *beams* haha. its like a mini march hol lor. i got to slack fr. thurs till monday. although monday and sunday i mugged a bit cos gotta do phys retest since i mced phys blocks. but turns out that todayy (or yesterday), i found out that its not counted and my tutor let me bring it to do ^-^ good thing. haha

hmmm. xiao huang cheng is on the 9th of april please please take note and pass the message around.. jiayous for your xhc perf! i wont be performing. mwahaha. another perk of not being part of zhiwei or chouwei. (: hahas.

lets all curse david to not get thru council elections - actually it'd be a blessing in disguise k... huangcheng is such a wunnerful cca *beams* plus im personally against council :D haha. yay anticouncil me. haha. well, the pple in there are okae (since like a lot of them are rg pple. and faith! my classmate!) but i personally think they're quite dumb in a group. but im prejudiced. like nearly all pa pple are. since they cause us so much unnecessary trouble =X but shall not badmouth council too much, considering theyre nice to huangcheng peeps. ^-^

yayes! get all your 2nd intake friends to join huangcheng next year kk. we need da ppleE!!! (: (: haha and be thickskinned abt it. if we weren't thickskinned right, why would so many of yall have joined? i know pple like ningfei were dragged in lar. then join that time so xin bu gan qing bu yuan one. see lar! not a wrong choice *beams* haha.

enough crap! (: till next time...

2005-03-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

hi everyone! its david hsing yu here!
1stly, congrats to tsai hsiu, jessie and zhao yin on finishing their blk test, now u all can relax liao!
if i am not wrong, or if there will be no further changes, xiao huang cheng(XHC) is this sat.and the thing is, we haven even came up with our plot yet!!!haiz...dunnoe if we will make it or not.hahaha.but at least we noe wad characters we r acting......hehehe! and pei han, add oil for wadeva u gonna do after XHC.lol.
shi yan was complaining we had too little tian tang outings, so yeah, someone pls go organise an outing since everyone is free now, dun wait till another blk test start then nobody has time. actually i was bugging jessie to organise lar, hahaha, but she dun wan....either we all bug her together or someone else has to do it.hahahaha
anw, my class got one new comer, 2nd intake, called guang feng. he very keen on joining huang cheng. he got come and watch this yr's huang cheng although that time he is not in hci.then he joined my class today and said he was from drama in sec sch and he really wanted to join huang cheng.haha, so think he will go for our audition next yr.hahaha
council running is so fun!!!( dun throw eggs at me) its a whole new exp for me and i made a lot of frens too...i am so glad i learnt all the mass dances liao!and i got the dance partner i want!!!hehehe! no matter wad the result is, whether or not i will get elected, i will still not regret spending my time running and campaigning, cos its really fun, fills the empty time which were used to paixi last time, at least my life wont be so empty.
so glad that shi yan still comes back everyday to see all of us!! i really miss my time sitting with him and fang2 in the audi during chem and phy lectures when we were toking abt all kinda stuff like yong liang, china bad words, letters to M, huang cheng, paixi, etc. haiz, now can only sit with class and tok abt work and work...haiz...my class ppl say i am very dao recently, look very sad and is very quiet, yes, and i mean quiet!haha. i can still rmb that time at audi, fang2, me, shi yan and ning fei at the audi. we were chatting halfway when ning fei took out a paper bag. he opened, its FRENCH FRIES !!!!!!(OOPS!) haha!then we started eating despite its VT move in next week!!!LOL!its really strange that the lecturer cant see us when we r like sitting at that special row of comfy seat just right in front of him.haha.guess he too busy catching ppl slping.lol.
ok, lets recap, we need someone to organise another tian tang outing, and tian tang yan yuans, think there will be xiao huang cheng meeting at concourse everyday after sch. yup, so do come if u can! and anw, if u r free, visit my class blog www.05s78.blogspot.com, there is sth really funny that happened to me and is posted there.hahaha
ok, jessie just told me that XHC is next sat, yeah, so we haf more time to discuss and practise, my role is kinda easy to do though.hahaha!!!so i guess pei han u haf to postpone wadeva u planning to do to next sat, or u can proceed as usual.hahaha!
think i haf written enuf liao. gd luck to everyone for XHC! we will haf lotsa fun!
:D peace out...

P.S. Tsai Hsiu, wanna do a 2nd session of matchmaking, think they gonna forget abt each other if we let it drag too longggggggg.hahaha!

1 week

2005-03-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

Can't believe it. Only one week has passed from HuangCheng but it seemed like its one month. Haiz. Time crawls. Hmm... Wonder how long I will have to wait before next year's HuangCheng.

2005-03-27T16:58:00.000+08:00

Yoz~ mama here. Heard that xiao huang cheng is coming soon, so excited! hurhur~ I'm coming back to HC to discuss with u all tmr, n return my fuzhuang also. Sigh~ miss u all so much, n feel so empty here to have the first weekend without huang cheng this year. Anywayz, hope that we can keep in touch with each one another through this blog~ and Jessie, can link me? 16memory.blogspot.com (a bit troublesome to view it, coz it's in Chinese.)

2005-03-25T23:32:00.000+08:00

heyhey everyone (: jessie here... haha yay i created a blog for us! the template is rather simple la.. i lazy to make nicer one. and lazy to add a huge white bg to the piccy so that it'd cover the ugly blogger thing @ the top... but nvm right? :D haha. anyway, as you can see, we don't have a tagboard or comments thing! well, then at least you all are forced to post your replies and not leave this to die or sth :D haha the posts also don't look nice short lor. so post longer posts k. and crap more. oh anyone with photolinks and/or blogs, tell me.. i'll add them to the links below k (: hopefully we can stay in contact thru the heaven blog too :D